Do That Shit, Do That Shit, Do it.

Question: Why is money such a taboo subject?
I'm fine with telling people how much I make, how much I made that year, how much money I need for college, etc.

All it is is numbers.

My friend Emily Moreno is coming from Georgia with her red-headed boyfriend. UMmmmmMMMmMMmmMmM... whatever!

I am eating so much. I feel disgusting.

I Don't Need Nobody, Not Anybody.

Okay this week I went to see the 3 Asian "famous" whatevers. Twice. Both times sucked ass. I didn't learn much. I got the feeling that the 2 actors thought they were too cool for school.

I like to DAAANCCEEEEEEEEEEEE.
Linda came to Eugene to hang out. We are alike. I realize sometimes how much of a bitch I am through her. Thanks LINDA!!!!!!!

Virginia Tech

That whole tragedy is very upsetting. I can't believe that he killed 2 people and came back and killed 30+ more. I mean this guy was so fucked up! It was really odd seeing family members of victims on TV less than 24 hours after the incident. How are they even able to stand?


It kind of frusterates me that the south korean embassy has apologized for the actions that cho took. I don't recall when the columbine school shooting happening that white people say sorry. Or when 9/11 happened, the middle east said sorry.

I am so proud to be south korean, it is literally the only race that I have ever met where they remain so united.

I very much like this quote because it is oh so true:
"Korean culture is like this and most koreans are raised this way: Korea is a nation of treasure and every korean should be proud of being korean. When one korean does the nation proud, the whole nation rejoice; when one makes a bad name, the whole nation gets upset."

I Want To Give In To The Woman In Me.

so friday the 13th was one of the worst nights of my life!!

near death?
puking.
shaking.
heart racing.
Maybe I did die that night and I'm just continuing on with life.


the rest of the weekend was alright though.

I got random bruises on my body.

I need to get my lip, nose and belly pierced!! And a white tattoo.

Men suck. No qualifier needed.

Men suck. Especially Chinese men. They're cocky, selfish, demanding, and have little to offer. This is what I have concluded from my experience with Chinese guys. Maybe their reputation can be redeemed if one steps up and changes my opinion.

This is all I will say about it because there are other things going on that make me feel self-centered and pathetic for talking about this. While serious and traumatic, it is still overshadowed by more significant problems. Such as death. Or impending death to those undeserving of it.

What I think about too much:
dropping everything and running away to Europe to travel and work in cafes
dropping everything and running away to South America to travel and work in markets
dropping everything and running away to China
asshole Chinese guys
Lindsey


What I need to do:
focus on my classes
make more friends
get up the nerve to talk to Cookguy
get a new passport so that running away to other countries is an actual possibility

I Can See Us Holding Hands.

I'm jealous of those traveling out of state for their spring break. Where is Atira going? 15 minutes away from her home, working. I don't resent it, but I hate how my life is planned out for like 4 years and I don't have any time to take really fun trips.

Nor do I have the money since college is soooooooooo expensive.

I thought my schedule for next term was perfect (starting at 8 am to 11:50 am) but now I'm starting to think not. It would be more perfect if other people had the same type of schedule, but it seems that most people have theirs during the day. I guess I could do hw... but that's pretty boring...

Have you ever cried hysterically due to:
*Boy Drama*
*A Bad Grade*
*A Fight With A Friend*
*Having A Bad Hair Day*

Well let me tell you something: You are a bitch.

I saw Hotel Rwanda yesterday, and our problems are a blessing. How does one ever get the mentality to chop someone with a machety?

What's sad is that I don't think I could ever become an aid worker. Not because of what you are thinking: because I am not white. I don't think the people doing the genocide would know immediatley that I was an American citizen so they would just kill me. But I suppose death shouldn't scare me cause we will all die anyway. Might as well die for a cause. I definitley want to volunteer/or donate money to an organization but I don't know which one.

what is normal?

Nobody realizes that some people expend tremendous energy merely to be normal. --Albert Camus

I'm one of those people.
They say be yourself but then judge you when you are different. I'm sure a lot of people try not to judge but everyone does. We can't be accepted by everyone but as Veronica said, there is always at least ONE who does without judgement. Then again, one is a lonely number.

Some abnormal people on campus:

The guy that wears a skirt

The guy with a bump on his head who is annoying because he always has something to say in class which of course turns out to be something that makes him look smart.

I Can't Decide Whether You Should Live Or Die.

Before:
\
After:


i truly disgust myself:
when i sit around for hours and don't do any hw or study.
when i dont speak up for myself (which is rare, but it does happen)
when i wear sweats for like a week
when i can't let something go
when i don't make each day count


I am truly proud of myself:
when i don't fail anything
when i don't make my weight an issue
when i don't make school a priority but still maintain a healthy grade


the end for now.

Fear Factor

Eleanor Roosevelt said, "Do one thing every day that scares you."

I think I will attempt it myself. I think every one should try it. However, "scare" is open to interpretation. So is "do" and "every day."




I am sick for the first time in years. Who did this to me? ATIRA!!! I'm dying.
"Life is pleasant. Death is peaceful. It's the transition that's troublesome." --Isaac Asimov.
It's not that scary. I'm more bothered by the fact that Cookguy has a girlfriend.

Get Set..........................................

Is anyone else waiting for life to start??

At Times...

don't you just feel like this?



but then somtimes you feel like this:



Don't worry ladybugs. We all feel you.


*Atira*

Joining the ranks

So this is my first blog ever. I've been invited to be a part of this blog. The PRESSURE!! But also honored.

Some random facts about myself:
i have a horrible memory
i love bread
i love ice cream
my obssessions are stuffed animals and earrings
i'm still not over cookguy (i know!)
i wear a jade bracelet that i haven't taken off for two years (it doesn't really come off. easily)
i like to make lists (and plan things)
i like quotes


I suppose i should put up a picture of me:



I don't really understand the idea of blogs. They're like journal entries that everyone can see, but if everyone can see them, they aren't really journal entires because journal entires are personal. People don't write blogs the way they would write in their journals. They are too conscious of the fact that anyone can see them.


-Emily

o rly?

Why are people so cruel to eachother sometimes?

speaking of which, Al Gore let himself GO.

My Rates
Donnie Darko= pretty good.
Jake Gyllenhall=pretty cute.
cook guy=over it!
my teachers teaching=bad.

I'm taking Galaxy and the Universe blah next term. Seriously, WTF?

"WHO POOPED ON THE 4TH FLOOR OF CARSON? SRSLY!"



*Atira*

OH OH THOSE SUMMER NIGHTS!

spring is here bb's!!!!! im very excited. i cant wait to eat lunch outside and feel the sun on my shoulders.

Went to portland this past weekend for Love Actually. Semi amusing. I loved singing the songs. But people can only pray for so long, you know? I, unfortunately, did not eat a cheesy gordita crunch. YO QUIERO TACO BELL!

i tried to prepare my body for my bikini "i gotta get my bikini body!" but I didn't even wear a bikini!! fuck that!

Here's the crazy christian group:


-Atira-

There Must Be Another Way, Cause I Believe In Taking Chances

I like to take walks around the neighborhoods. I like to reflect on my current life (as odd as that sounds) and I like to get extremely, excruciatingly depressed about it. I feel like I am looking for something when I am going on these walks. Sometimes, I feel like leaving. Like... going to another state, randomly.

Love Actually (christian conference) is this weekend and I don't know what I expect out of it. Maybe I just won't have expectations, so whatever happens, it exceeds my expectations (good job atira!)
... I like to refer to myself as third person.

You know, our bodies are not really who we are. It's just a form that gives us identity but it is not US.

GAH, what the hell is wrong with me!!!!!!!!! I used to care what I wear everyday. But now I look like trash. If I don't have fashion. I can't come to grips with anything.
I need to also be 85 pounds.


"pain is just a different feeling"-My stunt group


-Atira-

Ah, Yes. About That.

I keep forgetting to tell you readers:
I got my braces off!

Big News
Britney Spears shaved her head!!! She is so fucking crazy right now. I miss the old Britney.

I'll do a bigger update soon. I'm tired. Okay.

-Atira-

Wasting Away in Margaritaville

Valentine's Day. I'm really annoyed by people who say they "HATE" Valentine's Day. Please, just shut up. You sound bitter and pathetic.





















So apparently there is a possibility that someone got ahold of my credit card number. Grrrreat.

Why is it that if you're not super happy and smiling 24/7, then people automatically assume that something is wrong? Oh well, I should be grateful that there are people who are concerned enough about me to care.







P.S.
main event: Yes, I agree. I didn't know that Anna's brother died, but I know her son did.
emi: I know what you mean. You are a wise one.

My Biggest Regret

On Thursday, after dance class, I was in the bathroom and this korean girl I talk to was in the bathroom too. These 2 girls from the dance class walk in and they talk about the class and how great it was. Then one of the girls says, "We don't have any ethnic kids in that class." And the girl replies, "Yeah only the GTF." Me and the korean girl look at eachother like, wtf. First of all: WHO SAYS ETHNIC ANYMORE!? second: HELLOOOOOOO US? PLus there are several other asians and a black girl in that class. I was so close to saying something but I decided against it. Which made me think of back in freshman year....

My Biggest Regret

I was in study hall and the teacher left the room. After she left, this girl starts yelling at this girl from across the room saying "you're such a dog! don't even look at me!" blah blah for about 10 minutes. I felt so terrible for that girl cause she was just sitting there looking miserable. And the whole class was silent and not doing anything while this dumb bitch was just yelling at her. And I was so close to telling her to shut the fuck up. But I didn't. And I have no clue why. Cause I wasn't scared of her. I regret so much not sticking up for that girl cause she was too scared to stick up for herself.


If I am ever in that situation again, I will stick up for that person to the max.

"The world is a dangerous place, not because of those who do evil, but because of those who look on and do
nothing" Albert Einstein



-Atira-

Baby When The Lights Go Out

So, what do you do when you're with a group of people who aren't talking, and you talk, and you don't get a response? Leave? Cause that makes the most sense to me.

I'm really annoyed with a lot of people right now.Maybe I'm PMSing? But still. I also dislike it when people are manipulative.















this is my crack face :P



Anna Nicole Smith died! WTF. She seemed immortal.


A tribute to Anna Nicole Smith: RIP 2/8/07




















We are what we repeatedly do. Excellence, therefore,
is not an act but a habit.
Aristotle

VD

Responses to my loyal readers:

Emi: You know what it is.
Jkwon: Indeed.
Jen: The bad one.

Front, Side, Back, Side

love is such a scary thing. how odd that you need a significant other to complete you. at least by other peoples standards.

well maybe i dont really know what i am talking about. IVE NEVA BEEN IN LOVE! yay??!

I wonder what Bill Do is doing right now. Same with Gwen Lindsay Bradley. Same with Lindsey Jackson. I'm still so shocked that God took away Bill. I don't think I will ever get over that. I regret not going to his memorial.

I very much appreciate everything in my life right now. However, I do find that I am disappointed in it as well. It's very meaningless. If I were to die today, i would have gone to the gates and found that I have done nothing. Good or bad. That's why at times, I am serious about being a nun because at least your life has meaning.

In Family and Human Services, my teacher was telling us what is high on priority lists for people ages 18-25. Number 2 was being famous. The class laughed, but I didn't find it funny. If people want to be famous, and believe that they can achieve, then let them fuckin' go for it! Whenever people say to me, "oh you would never do that," I get a little peeved. No one knows what one is capable of doing. I think anyone can do whatever they want, as long as they set their mind to it. I am essentially capable of anything.

Tomorrow is my cocktail party. We'll see how that thingy goes.

-Atira-