There Must Be Another Way, Cause I Believe In Taking Chances

I like to take walks around the neighborhoods. I like to reflect on my current life (as odd as that sounds) and I like to get extremely, excruciatingly depressed about it. I feel like I am looking for something when I am going on these walks. Sometimes, I feel like leaving. Like... going to another state, randomly.

Love Actually (christian conference) is this weekend and I don't know what I expect out of it. Maybe I just won't have expectations, so whatever happens, it exceeds my expectations (good job atira!)
... I like to refer to myself as third person.

You know, our bodies are not really who we are. It's just a form that gives us identity but it is not US.

GAH, what the hell is wrong with me!!!!!!!!! I used to care what I wear everyday. But now I look like trash. If I don't have fashion. I can't come to grips with anything.
I need to also be 85 pounds.


"pain is just a different feeling"-My stunt group


-Atira-

Ah, Yes. About That.

I keep forgetting to tell you readers:
I got my braces off!

Big News
Britney Spears shaved her head!!! She is so fucking crazy right now. I miss the old Britney.

I'll do a bigger update soon. I'm tired. Okay.

-Atira-

Wasting Away in Margaritaville

Valentine's Day. I'm really annoyed by people who say they "HATE" Valentine's Day. Please, just shut up. You sound bitter and pathetic.





















So apparently there is a possibility that someone got ahold of my credit card number. Grrrreat.

Why is it that if you're not super happy and smiling 24/7, then people automatically assume that something is wrong? Oh well, I should be grateful that there are people who are concerned enough about me to care.







P.S.
main event: Yes, I agree. I didn't know that Anna's brother died, but I know her son did.
emi: I know what you mean. You are a wise one.

My Biggest Regret

On Thursday, after dance class, I was in the bathroom and this korean girl I talk to was in the bathroom too. These 2 girls from the dance class walk in and they talk about the class and how great it was. Then one of the girls says, "We don't have any ethnic kids in that class." And the girl replies, "Yeah only the GTF." Me and the korean girl look at eachother like, wtf. First of all: WHO SAYS ETHNIC ANYMORE!? second: HELLOOOOOOO US? PLus there are several other asians and a black girl in that class. I was so close to saying something but I decided against it. Which made me think of back in freshman year....

My Biggest Regret

I was in study hall and the teacher left the room. After she left, this girl starts yelling at this girl from across the room saying "you're such a dog! don't even look at me!" blah blah for about 10 minutes. I felt so terrible for that girl cause she was just sitting there looking miserable. And the whole class was silent and not doing anything while this dumb bitch was just yelling at her. And I was so close to telling her to shut the fuck up. But I didn't. And I have no clue why. Cause I wasn't scared of her. I regret so much not sticking up for that girl cause she was too scared to stick up for herself.


If I am ever in that situation again, I will stick up for that person to the max.

"The world is a dangerous place, not because of those who do evil, but because of those who look on and do
nothing" Albert Einstein



-Atira-

Baby When The Lights Go Out

So, what do you do when you're with a group of people who aren't talking, and you talk, and you don't get a response? Leave? Cause that makes the most sense to me.

I'm really annoyed with a lot of people right now.Maybe I'm PMSing? But still. I also dislike it when people are manipulative.















this is my crack face :P



Anna Nicole Smith died! WTF. She seemed immortal.


A tribute to Anna Nicole Smith: RIP 2/8/07




















We are what we repeatedly do. Excellence, therefore,
is not an act but a habit.
Aristotle

VD

Responses to my loyal readers:

Emi: You know what it is.
Jkwon: Indeed.
Jen: The bad one.

Front, Side, Back, Side

love is such a scary thing. how odd that you need a significant other to complete you. at least by other peoples standards.

well maybe i dont really know what i am talking about. IVE NEVA BEEN IN LOVE! yay??!

I wonder what Bill Do is doing right now. Same with Gwen Lindsay Bradley. Same with Lindsey Jackson. I'm still so shocked that God took away Bill. I don't think I will ever get over that. I regret not going to his memorial.

I very much appreciate everything in my life right now. However, I do find that I am disappointed in it as well. It's very meaningless. If I were to die today, i would have gone to the gates and found that I have done nothing. Good or bad. That's why at times, I am serious about being a nun because at least your life has meaning.

In Family and Human Services, my teacher was telling us what is high on priority lists for people ages 18-25. Number 2 was being famous. The class laughed, but I didn't find it funny. If people want to be famous, and believe that they can achieve, then let them fuckin' go for it! Whenever people say to me, "oh you would never do that," I get a little peeved. No one knows what one is capable of doing. I think anyone can do whatever they want, as long as they set their mind to it. I am essentially capable of anything.

Tomorrow is my cocktail party. We'll see how that thingy goes.

-Atira-